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On Embracing Your Light

It can be appalling to know that a grown adult would seek to dim the light of a 24-year-old. But many of us know, that no matter what age or background, there will be people that would rather see others as inferior to them than to embrace and encourage individuals to be all that they can be. I’m not speaking about anything new here. This is not something that hasn’t already been discussed over and over again in many forms. And yet, here we are, some of us having already understood the problematic nature of comparison, microaggressions and the desire to feel validated via feeding the insecurities of others.

There is something quite profound in knowing that your very existence has the potential to crack a thunderstorm in someone else’s clouds. All you can do is continue to be a rainbow for those who are seeking to calm the storm; allowing the ones who are busy creating dark skies to keep doing so, because after all, it is not your job to fix them. But even so, being surrounded by too many storm chasers could keep you from being that rainbow. So they gotta go.

In essence, what I’ve learned is, sometimes you don’t realize the power you possess until someone comes to destroy it. It’s easy to trip and wander into the darkness when you’ve felt like you’re not good enough. You feel your power and strength depleted. This can easily eat away at you and it’s imperative to let that energy go.

For me personally, I’ve come across several people in my life who utilize manipulation tactics to capitalize on my insecurities (who didn’t really matter in the long-run) that when someone I think is dope comes along, I’m surprised that they even want anything to do with me. I’m not Oprah, I’m not going to write this to tell you, “baby, all you need to do is love yourself” and whatever. I’m going through shit at the same time, I don’t have it figured out. But what I do know is this; we are all capable of reaching our highest potential. And in knowing that, the subtle negativity and the jarring rejection of others is just a reminder that you have to carry out something greater than yourself. As someone who chooses to see the best in people, this has been a tough lesson. I assume everyone is fantastic and kind and beautiful. So when I discover who they really are, it destroys me in a way. Now, I trust my gut. Because chances are, there were probably signs along the way that were trying to show me the truth but I chose to ignore them.

It’s not always going to be easy to shut out the noise.

They will wear your clothes and tell you that you don’t have style.

They will tell you that you’re a terrible person even though you’ve shown them nothing but kindness, while they try to take advantage of you.

In the words of Michelle, when they go low, we go high. And while others may get stuck, we keep it movin’. We don’t shade them, we don’t drag them, we keep it movin’. Because the hope for all of us who continue to move and shake should be that one day they will catch up, and run beside us.

Kill ’em with kindness. Smother them in goodness. And the best way to do that is to carry out your purpose, and be the greatest damn version of yourself. It’s a part of growing up. The more you feed your soul, the less you’ll feel it violated by bad energy. Belee dat.

xoxo Robby Rob

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