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Preview: The Story of “Fall Awakening”

Hello, Spinsters!

If you haven’t heard already, I have a new project I’ve been working on called “Fall Awakening” and it’s coming out Monday, November 17.

I am telling the story of “Fall Awakening” in a way I’ve never done before and I’m super nervous to share it. When Chapter One is published on Monday I will most likely be hiding from my phone and computer. I’ve never felt this way about writing before which makes it both exciting and terrifying. I don’t want to give away too much, but because this is so different from what I’ve done in the past, I wanted to provide a little preview of what to expect.

“Fall Awakening” is split into two parts: The Summer & The Fall.

This summer was an absolute mess.

While fall has always brought me a sense of renewal, and winter chortles through and complements my sweet disposition, summer has brought me nothing but loneliness and sweat on my forehead.

Seasons play an important role in the story. It’s also safe to assume “The Fall” has a double meaning.

This story is told through the eyes of Jacob Crawford.

I never use the real names of people I write about but I’ve always kept my own identity as Robert Soares aka Robby Rob. With this story, I decided to change my name as well and create a life that mirrors my own.

One of the themes in “Fall Awakening” is falling for your best friend.

This is not a new subject for me. I wrote all of “Skittles for Breakfast” about this exact theme. SFB is about my high school experiences with Jayden Tucker, the boy who brought me skittles for my birthday each year and how that love between two friends became something dangerous and magical. With “Fall Awakening” you get the sense that the protagonist has had this experience before. Jacob is able to analyze things differently based on when he went through this for the first time as a teenager. He knows what he has to do in order to free himself from the situation, even though he’s not sure if he can do it again.

Damien Halloway is the new Jayden Tucker.

What made “Skittles for Breakfast” so complex and mysterious was the fact that Jayden Tucker identifies as straight. Throughout the whole story, you’re confused as to what Jayden is really feeling and if his actions truly indicate romantic intentions. In “Fall Awakening,” the best friend Damien Halloway, is actually gay, but that sense of mystery still remains. It’s all about second guessing, and how you can trick yourself into believing someone loves you.

This story is more honest and raw about insecurities.

I’ve certainly talked about being depressed before, but I’ve never really discussed the factors that contribute to it. I was able to do this through inventing Jacob Crawford. He is the vehicle that enables me to go there.

I got the idea to write “Fall Awakening” after I heard the song “Froot” by Marina and the Diamonds.

You will learn more in the story but in the meantime, you can give the song a listen below.

Pay attention to the line, “Autumn, I’ll be gone.” A bit of foreshadowing tbh.

Well that’s all I can say for now. Get ready for Chapter One on Monday, November 17.

xoxo Robby Rob

Photo Collection directed by Noemi Gonzalez.


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